Starting Over

How and where does one start over when one has lost so many things that they don’t know what in the world to put their hand to first?

I have asked myself that question many times because I have had to start over so many times that this blog could only be about this particular subject and I would have enough material to keep me in blog heaven for months, if not years.  So, with this first post of this series, I will focus on what I am starting over for, and not from.

I am starting over for the billionth time today because I am tired of all of the yesterdays I spent wallowing in self-pity and fear. I am weary of waiting for some kind of cosmic boom to happen so that things would be the way they used to be before I lost everything and everyone I loved. And I am sick and tired of being sick and tired of being so darned sick and tired.

A large part of me does not want to start over again because it knows that starting over takes effort and that it will most likely take quite a while before any major changes become apparent. That part of me would much rather be lazy and is not quite ready to give up the crutch called “Good Excuses For Staying Stuck in My Rut.” Fortunately for me, though, is the fact that I am the master of my own ship and I have the authority to tell myself that I am going on this journey whether I enjoy it or not. (For the record: Me and Myself said, “Heck, no, we’re not gonna go!” But I said, “You’re out of here, baby! Might as well make the best of it. Let’s go!”) Look out, world. Here I come.

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2 thoughts on “Starting Over

  1. Im right there with you dear, so tired of being sick, and sick of being tired, lost friends, loved ones, feel so alone, even my marriage ended 4 years ago, and yes, I had to “start over” again for the billionth time it seemed! And truthfully, yes, we are NOT able to keep starting over, but we do, somehow, we survive, but boy it does get harder and harder dosen’t it! I love your blog and page, and will be following it closely, because maybe I can learn, and use what you write to help me..and you…so nice to meet you and call you friend, Sherrie from Daily Strength!

    • Sherrie,
      I believe with all my heart that as long as we are still breathing, we can start over as many times as we like and for as long as it takes until we reach our intended destination.
      I have had to start over many times. Especially these past six months or so. Just when I feel as though I have reached a milestone, I begin to realize that the milestone was simply a stepping-stone and that there are far greater blessings right up the road, if I will just keep on walking and believing that I will get there if I do not give up. I am so thrilled to have you to walk with on this journey of “starting over.”

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